In between

I feel sad. It's silly, really, because I realize that I haven't felt just sad in a long long time. It was always sadness mingled with anger, or pain or whatever. But not this time. I just sit and look at him, look at me and it's as if I were watching some kind of TV programme or somebody else's life, as if our words and acts are somehow independant, beyond our control and all I can do is watch as they decide by themselves what to do with my life.
This must be what they call denial.
Is this love? No, it musn't be. It's a may have been love, something that could have happened but never did. And I keep telling myself "if only I had met him later, later"and it's so sad, the way we sit in front of each other, I, knowing that he did love me and that he could still love me but that he doesn't want to, and he, knowing.... well i honestly don't know what he knows-that it's just infatuation, that it couldn't last, that he would not want it to last?

What am I

The Sudden Departure Random Brutal Love Master (RBLM) Sweet. Dear. Loving. At Gate 18. Final call. You are The Sudden Departure. You've been in a lot of serious relationships. More than a few have ended ugly. Uglily. Whatever. Our guess is that you're a really fantastic girl who doesn't really know what she wants, and you've broken a few hearts as a result. You fall for people easily, and you enjoy the feeling of falling in love, but once you're there, either boredom or the old "grass is greener" syndrome sets in. The mind wanders, and with it goes the flesh. And then the toiletries. Your exact female opposite: The Intern Deliberate Gentle Sex Dreamer We know you're not the classic "love 'em and leave 'em" type, at least not in a purely sexual sense. You have too many serious bonding tendencies for that. But even though you're theoretically looking to settle down, you don't settle long on one person. "Serial monogamist" is probably something you hear a lot. "Emotionally loose" is another way to put it. To the poor guys eating your dust and sniffing your panties, it doesn't really make much difference. Of course, it's not really your fault that people get hurt. You have every right to move on when you choose. ALWAYS AVOID: The Backrubber (DGSD), The Gentleman (DGLM) CONSIDER: The Vapor Trail (RBLM), someone just like you Link: The Online Dating Persona Test @ OkCupid - free online dating.